Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Self Portrait Tuesday: Exploring Identity
Monday, November 28, 2005
Saturday, November 26, 2005
It was such a beautiful day out. Cool and crisp. There were lots of people out shopping and skating on the ice rink at the mall. We are looking forward to doing a little Christmas shopping tonight while the kids are being watched by some friends.
Friday, November 25, 2005
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Let the fun begin
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Self Portrait Tuesday: Self Exploration #4
Lately I feel like I've been going through a spiritual identity crisis. I'm searching to feel whole and peaceful in my walk with God. I haven't felt it in awhile. I'm sure it has to do with me and my lack of prayer. Prayer really helps me feel stronger spiritually. Prayer for me means just trying to connect with God during a quiet time. Sometimes it means saying nothing at all, but just clearing my mind and just sitting quietly with a power bigger than myself.
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Monday, November 21, 2005
"For nothing is impossible with God" I read Luke 1 this morning and this is the scripture that stood out. I tell myself lots of things are impossible. I don't always say it in those words but I say it. "We are going to be late again","no one really likes me", "I can't make that", "Jack will never be potty trained", "I'll be this way forever", I could go on and on. Little negative things come out of my mouth all day long. Here is a list of things that ARE possible.
1. Jack will be potty trained one day.
2. My inner happiness will not be determined by the size of my jeans.
3. I can be a more spiritual person.
4. I will accept that people do like me.
5. We will have our own house someday.
6. I will learn to be more patient with the kids.
7. We will travel someday.
8. I will learn to not be so concerned with what others think of me.
9. I will learn to love exercise.
10. My kids will always be very close to John and I.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Happy Birthday Mason
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Stella and Mr. Lamb
Friday, November 18, 2005
random street art : alhambra st.
- John for working so hard to support us.
- My mom for pushing through and sticking with school.
- Heidi for leaving New Orleans and starting over even though it was really hard.
- Lorissa for being honest about her emotions.
- Gretchen for her childlike honesty and faith (that's a good thing)
What am I grateful for today?
- The baby gate that keeps my kids out of the kitchen.
- XM radio that is new on our cable network.
- Frozen chocolate chips.
- Thanksgiving coming on Thursday.
- Oprah's magazine.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
My kids are funny and sweet and I love them, but I'm am in need of a sanity break. I need a stand in mom to pop on over for a day or so and take care of these two clowns. Yesterday we went out to eat with my friend Gretchen and her 2 kids. Now I always think twice before going out to eat with kids, but it was the food co-op so I figured it would be relaxed and a little noisier than your usual restaurant, and it was. So how come midway through our meal, as Jack is getting louder and louder and Stella is squirming did I freak out and, mid bite grab our food, and throw the kids in the stroller and bolt from the restaurant in an sweaty anxiety ridden state? Because I CANNOT HANDLE EATING OUT WITH KIDS. There I said it, I HATE EATING OUT WITH KIDS. As I hightailed it back to our car leaving Gretchen wondering what my problem was, I could feel myself relaxing. I called John when I got home, crying to him that I am the lamest mom ever, can't even handle eating a simple meal out with the kids. He reassured me that I am not lame, this is just one area that I am not good at right now. We all have some area where we just aren't great. He was right, I will not, do not want, can not, eat out with kids right now. If I do you just might find me the local psych hospital rocking back and forth in a corner sucking my thumb. The time will come when it will be fun and easy, that is just not right now.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
random street art: J street
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Self Portrait Tuesday: Self Exploration #3
Monday, November 14, 2005
We walked around downtown. It was Second Saturday Art walk so the stores were full of people looking at local artists and the streets were bustling with people and street performers.
We walked down to one of my favorite coffee shops Infusions and outside there were some belly dancers. These were not your typical belly dancers though with the veils and jingly anklets.
These were fire throwing bellydancers. It was incredible to watch. The Chemical Brothers were blasting and they were swinging fire balls and flames were balanced on their heads and swung around their bodies. It was all very exciting. With all the theatrics though the dancers managed to keep it all very fluid and sensual.
And then on Sunday at church my friend Lorissa surprised me with this adorable little gift. Her and her hubby Ron went up to apple hill and found this. We think it's the cutest thing EVER!!
Saturday, November 12, 2005
random street art
Friday, November 11, 2005
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Jack and Stella
loud* "monsters inc." *throws things* laughs* "big truck"* tantrums* "no"* ipop* forts *monkeys *"clopit milk" *bites finger nails *whining* persistent* loving *funny *beautiful
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Self Portrait Tuesday: Self Exploration #2
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Friday, November 04, 2005
heart and mind out to him, and still loves me and thanks me for sharing it with him.
Today I'm grateful for two beautiful, happy, healthy children. For the gift of their love, and for every moment that I have with them.
Today I'm grateful for my own health. For my strong willed mind, my healthy heart, and my creative mind.
Today I'm grateful for living now in this time and space, for my mother and my grandmother and her grandmother who cried and laughed and loved first.
Today I'm grateful for God. For his love and patience with me. For being able to talk to him and love him and get strength from him.
Today I'm grateful for people who help those who are hurting, for people who lay their lives down to help the flooded, the raped, the motherless, the lost, the addicted.
Today I'm grateful to be able to love and laugh and cry and get angry. For not being so numbed out by our culture of fear that I cannot fully enjoy every day if I choose to.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Look ma I'm walking....sort of
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Here is some paper plate art we made the other day during craft time. Impressive huh?
And finally here is a little piece we call "Is that a banana in your suv or are you just happy to see me?". Jack stuffed his morning banana in his little car and shut the doors. This morning he stuffed his scrambled egg in.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Self Portrait Tuesday: Self Exploration
I'm not sure if this self portrait really fits into the theme this month, but I'm sure I'll figure it out by the end of the month. A huge part of my identity is portrayed in this picture. I think, worry, wonder, and dream constantly. My mind is seldom quiet. My escape is when I pray or read books but even then my mind will take over and I can say the same sentence or read the same line over and over again while my mind wanders.
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