Wish

Yesterday at church the guy who was doing announcements congratulated this couple on buying their first home. In an instant a dark cloud came over my heart and all I could think about was how stupid they were for announcing that in church. I was not happy for them, all I could feel was this bitterness sitting on my chest. I was in a funk for the rest of the service and really could not pay attention. I know that I was not being very much like Jesus sitting there in church sending my evil thoughts to the innocent couple a few rows back. I just wish so much that we were in a position to buy a house. How is it possible that it seems like everyone is buying a home. The prices here are outrageous, are we missing some secret to home buying, does everyone have a rich uncle who's co-signing, can everyone afford a 1500 mortgage payment?. In reality, I'm not all bitter and mad about this all the time, most of the time I really feel happy to be living where we are and not in great need of having "more", but once in awhile something triggers me and I feel like keeping up with the Joneses. My wish is to be content, and happy without having to have the "bigger" and "better" things. To know that we are still being blessed by God even if he isn't allowing us to buy a home at this time in our life.