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Friday, March 17, 2006

Grateful Friday

I'm really not feeling all that grateful today. I am annoyed and want a break. It's been a long week and I just want to walk away for awhile and do nothing. I'm feeling guilty for not making money, not that John is making me feel guilty, he isn't. I just feel that pressure to have more money, and contribute to our family by adding money to it. I really know in my head that the kids come first and that no amount of money is more important than my being home with the kids, but today I feel that what I'm doing is just not good enough.
I AM grateful though for so many things even though I may not be bursting with joy at this moment. I love my kids more than anything. They make me happy and make me feel so incredible inside, they are amazing. I love my husband even though he drives me nuts sometimes (hi john :) ). I'm happy that a couple of friends of mine are taking sewing classes with me.
I'm so grateful for a roof over our heads and food on our table, we are never in true need of anything important.
I'm grateful for my mom and her determination, one day my kids will be able to see her as a shining example of what it means to overcome,and to fulfill dreams. I'm grateful for each day I get to be with my wonderful family and always know they love me.


Blogger gkgirl said...

very honest
and truthful
and real...

there is nothing wrong
with only feeling grateful
for the basics somedays
in my opinion...

and that picture of
the two of them looking at each other
is so cute
happy friday!

9:43 AM  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

I have been reading some grateful friday posts for a few weeks now and think I am going to make one today.

Thanks for writing your list today, even though you are not bursting with gratitude:)

Your children look so happy and healthy, nevermind gorgeous.

Hope you get a chance to "get away" this weekend.

10:44 AM  
Blogger Renee said...

Great post! And great photos. I love the one of them looking at each other.

11:20 AM  
Blogger acumamakiki said...

I love this. Very honest and truthful ~ thank you for sharing this with us. Your kids are beautiful and seem so happy ~ that is a sign of a GOOD job and while it is thankless, you're doing it very well. Here's to a good weekend and a mommy break!

12:42 PM  
Blogger JeepGirl said...

Found your blog thru FroggieMom's. Great photos of your kids.
I went and looked at your other photos, looks like your a great and talented photographer.

Mommyhood is the best. Challenging but the best.
Will visit again.

1:39 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

thank you thank you thank you SO MUCH for this entry. i too am a stay at home mom with two little ones. i CRIED when i read this because i am feeling exactly like this right now. just dying to be able to focus on all that is RIGHT and GOOD about what i am doing, and yet so easily sucked into what the rest of our culture says we should be doing. you just gave me so much encouragement just by reminding me that i really am NOT alone, it just feels like it sometimes!

1:49 PM  
Blogger telfair said...

Even though I don't have kids yet, I can relate to this, because living internationally, I'm only working part-time, and I feel constant guilt that I'm not contributing financially the way I used to. I know logically that this isn't the right way to look at it -- that the effort we put into making homes for our family, the work we do in the home, raising and taking care of children, etc. is as valuable as any full-time paying job, if not more -- I can't help it sometimes. I think our society just puts so many confusing messages out there, for women, and in general, our society is so consumer-driven that we can't help but look at everything in terms of dollars and cents.
You are a great mom and wife, Heather, and you're doing an invaluable job -- I know how you feel, a bit, and you're not alone!

2:01 PM  
Blogger Server Girl said...

i love this series of pics of jack and stella...very cute :)

4:23 PM  
Anonymous yolie said...

I remember how difficult it was being the Mother of small children. It really does wear you down somedays no matter how much you love it and them.
You're doing a great job!

5:39 PM  
Blogger Glamorous Jo said...

These photos are SO ADORABLE!!!! It looks like you are doing a wonderful job raising happy kids!!!

5:47 PM  
Blogger Sarah e.Smith said...

I just recently discovered your blog and have had a wonderful time reading it. You have a beautiful family. I love your writing and your honesty :) I'll be back to visit agaon!

6:06 PM  
Blogger PJ said...

So real and true...those feeling are SO real! Thank you for sharing...I do have to say I was there about 8-9 years me when I say when they hit school you will see how much you really were really worth-- SIMPLY PRICELESS! I know you 'know' it in your head, but you WILL see the payoff -believe me! Keep doing your great job that you do!
They are soooo cute!

6:17 PM  
Blogger tammielovescandy said...

i have been a friendly stalker of your blog since discovering it last week.
i wish i still lived in the area, because you are EXACTLY the type of mommy friend i need.
we all have those days (weeks) when we just want to get away.
i brought a huge $$ debt from law school into our marriage and i don't bring in any money - so i go through the guilt feelings, too. hubby always says, "but think of the priceless love you give our kids." he's right.
thanks for your blog!

6:45 PM  
Anonymous Irene said...

these pictures are soooo cute!!!

and I know how you feel. don't be too hard on yourself, your contribution to your family is far more important than you think. now that Sean and Will are 4 I can see what a wonderful and priceless experience it has been to stay home to take care of them. I really do.

and I've read somewhere that SAHM would make around 50.000$ a year if they were paid for their job :)

10:31 PM  
Anonymous Marilyn said...

Very honest post, Heather...thank you for sharing these feelings. Those pictures are pretty darn adorable.

9:48 AM  
Anonymous Kristen said...

I'm here from Blogging Baby. I think it's a great challenge to not feel as though you are financially contributing - I still do a few things, but for the most part, I don't - but I know that I'm doing good, important work - and I try to remind myself of that as much as I can.

And motherhood is thankless and priceless.

Thanks for sharing brave post.

7:37 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a wonderful post!

So true. Be grateful for the things we have.

10:23 PM  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

i always appreciate your honesty and your ability to find the beauty in life even when you are struggling.

9:43 AM  

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